How long has it been? anyways....
Been doing the intern thing since the beginning of May. This is completely different from last year. Last year it was all about just doing the internship... this year it was to figure out if I wanted to come on staff.
The position that opened up at Woodleaf (which I did not get) was the catalyst for figuring out if I was really down to do staff. It took me about a month to wrestle with the idea. It's not so easy for me to just get up and go. I mean... it is... BUT.... it isn't.
I wholeheartedly love where I'm at. My fam is awesome, my friends are more than I could wish for, the spiritual community I have is phenomenal; there's a lot that is keeping me in Phoenix. Love that city.
On the other hand, I really have nothing keeping there. No babies, no future baby mama, no house.
I just got done interviewing at Mountain Lodge; some cabin at Lake Tahoe (freakin Lake Tahoe!). It's gorgeous there. If I get the job: I'd be there from November to May, I'd get a ski pass, and a stipend every month. Pretty legit.
But the situation is a total catch 22. If I take the job, my heart will be broken because I'm leaving the place I love. If I don't take the job, my heart will be broken because I'm not taking the opportunity to possibly love my job.
Also, my fam just came to see me here at Lost Canyon. It was tough to see them leave. Very tough.
So... If I'm offered this position... I will have to give it up to the big man.
It feels like I'm growing up
